This season of my life has quite literally forced me to focus on my present self. I’m usually the type to always focus on the next, or focus on how to better myself and work on things for the future. Most of my goals are always for the future and never benefiting present me. However, with being in quarantine, doing some self reflection and just spending more time with myself, I’ve noticed that I never truly focused on my present self.
At the beginning of quarantine, I was having a lot of internal conflict about what I was doing next and stressed that I wasn’t super busy. But, I had to literally sit back and relax and understand it’s okay to not be busy 24/7. In this season instead of preparing for what was next, I focused on present Naz. I focused on what made her happy, focused on loving her and I was selfish (in a good way lol). I took time to just sit and it felt so great to not feel guilty about doing something for the future. I also learned that mindfulness is so so important. Spending time with myself and actually enjoying the present made me appreciate living more in the moment. Making goals for present me has also brought me so much joy.
Before I was loving present Naz, I wasn’t undertaking my thoughts in awareness. In order to feel more in control of my mind and find some balance I had to rest in stillness, to stop doing and focus on just being. Cultivating awareness of the present gave me personal peace and I reduced all of my internal conflicts.
Ways that I’ve been loving present me:
Working out daily
Cooking new meals
Spoiling myself
Making more short term goals
Giving myself grace
This blog is just a reminder to you (and myself) to love present you. Yes, make goals for the future and prepare for future you. However, you can’t make it there if you don’t love current you. I’ve neglected present Naz for so long, but now I am living to love present Naz.
P.S. Here are some self care apps that I have been loving…
Eternal Sunshine
Affirmations
Sayuna
Reflectly
